the challenge of writing this entry is just about on par with the difficulty of trying to get this guy to open up. i can usually target someone's comfort zone and hone in on it, letting them know they can be relaxed and themselves around me, but not this time.
i'm not sure if date #6 was trying to filter every single thing he said because he knew i'd be documenting it or if he just wasn't interested in what i had to say. maybe he was just having a bad day? i'm usually really good at reading people but it felt like he had buried the book under his mattress.
it was like trying to walk into the ocean when the waves just keep knocking you down. it was really hard to keep conversation flowing. i felt like every time i brought up a subject and tried to go into detail about it, i wasn't getting very much reciprocation. i love talking about passionate subjects, bouncing creative ideas, discussing controversial issues, debating life, OR being a comical weirdo. i'm not a big fan of small talk and no matter what i tried i couldn't get past it. i thought for a bit we were getting somewhere when we had some truly imaginative films in common, but when i tried to pick them apart... i got nothing. date #6, if you don't agree with my opinions, you can tell me! i won't tear you down, i promise! in fact, i welcome a different point of view.
i'm sorry that i had to say no to go dancing with you. i can only dance if i'm comfortable with the person and unfortunately the only way i can get to that point is if they let me in. i hope the rest of your night was a great one and thanks again for saying yes to be one of my dates. i really do appreciate it.
best part of the date: the beer he chose for me.
best part of the night: finding another date for 30/30 on the way back to the car.
worst part of the date: communication.
worst part of the night: a skinny, toothless man asking me for money, then to go on a date and... ahem... telling me i'm edible while smacking his lips. (go ahead, you're allowed to laugh)